Rants and Musings

Life as a producer in general. When something’s bugging me, pissing me off, or just makes me go, “Hmmmmm…”, I’ll write about it here.

Man, the world hates me today, I tell you what.

I pay my two major bills online…just easier for me that way.  The Postal Service can’t reaise the price of e-mailing payments like they can on raising stamps, no?  😛  So…I go to login for my cell phone company…doesn’t recognize my login; I have to go thru the whole “Change My Password” BS…seems I have to do that everytime I visit them.  🙁  Go to pay my Internet bill, and that goes off without a hitch…until I get an error message for the confirmation.  So, I call them and tell them about today’s payment which, online, my account said it needed to be made…and found that I’d already paid on the 21st.  So, I just paid the bill twice in one month!  🙁  Well…it’ll go down as a credit; they won’t bother me again until March at least…lmao!

Well…next up was Best Buy and some photo paper for my printer.  Best Buy has the best price for paper (but ironically enough the WORST price for ink; they want 10% more than literally EVERY other store in town), so I got what I needed and was gonna browse the store a bit before heading home.  Stopped by the camera area and saw my new baby on display and smiled.  I’m SO happy with that camera!  I held the floor model for a bit, then remembered that I wanted to look into buying a spare battery for it (nope, it doesn’t use AA batteries, but a battery pack).  “Can I help you?” says the happy camera-counter-guy…no, I reply; I’m fine.  🙂

So, I go over to the battery area and start looking over the batteries, and I hear another, “May I help you?”  Not unusal…it’s a big store, so I expect to be asked that by sales people at least three times per visit (tho after 5, I get annoyed and leave the store).  Well, I look up at who asked it…it was the SAME mo-fo that asked me this not 10 seconds ago!  “No, I’m fine…” I reply; a little agitation showing in my voice, I imagine.  Then he hits me with the question that really set me off…

“Are you SURE?”

REALLY?!  Seriously, now.  Do I look brain-damaged enough to not know if I need help or not?!  This day and age of “Customer Service” can bite my oversized wing-wang…it’s not “Service” if a sales person follows you from department to department offering to clean up your breath with a mint and polish your shoes for you if you’ll JuuuuuuuuuuuST make that purchase!  I said I was fine…leave me the fuck alone, dipshit!  What, do I look like a theft threat to you or something???

Rant over…thanks for the breathing room.  🙂

Tolstoy

Just musing about the overpowering awfulness that is Twitter.  :/  I’ve been attacked online before (haven’t we ALL?)…I’ve even been the attacker; 99% of these incidents happened on Twitter.  I know I keep a widget on the side of this blog for you all to follow my tweets…but honestly, don’t expect to see much outside of “Follow Friday” postings and know that my heart is here.

It’s not even only in the industry I work in…politicians, wrestlers, sports stars, movie stars…it seems the thing to do these days is to go to Twitter and bash people.  Disturbing…I thought we professional people all left the playground years ago and stopped tossing “Nyah, nyah,nyah, nyah-nyah” around…I guess I was wrong.  :/  And I hope I’m not sounding like a morals teacher looking down upon the rest of the tweeters…like I say, I’ve put my fangs out on Twitter as well.  It’s the nature of the site, it seems…it’s like a bitching ground where people go to trash talk…stupid.

OK, muse over…pic of Stiletto from the early days for your time.  🙂

Tolstoy

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Stiletto

Went to BestBuy today…it’s only by the grace of good will in me that more sales people didn’t get strangled…lol.

I understand good customer service (I better, or I won’t BE in business, right?), but is it necessary to hit on me as a customer FIVE FCUKING TIMES?!  They must be bored at BB.  😉  EVERY time I hit a new part of the store, a helpful pair of hands/eyes was there to ask me if I need help…it’s exhausting saying “No” a billion times in one visit.  Funny part is…soon as I actually DO need help, there isn’t a soul around!  Am I alone in that?  😛  Prolly not.

I know I was rude a time or so (not massively rude, mind you…just didn’t answer when the 5th sales associate asked me if I needed help), but dammit; if I’m on a quest to find something and I fairly know where it is in the store, asking for help defeats my navigation skillz and my pride won’t let me have that.  In short…”Pull over and ask for directions…we’re lost!” “No, we’re NOT lost…I know where we are and can get us out without asking for directions!”  Except in my case, I DO know where things are in their store.  MOST of the time.  😉  I will ask for help after about the third casing of the store…but feel damn defeated after doing so.  😉

Had this happen again at our local “99 cent” store.  they remodeled it and changed shit all around (to make room for a “More than 99 Cents” area…lol), and now I don’t know where ANYTHING is.  This time at least, I was able to find what I wanted (a 16 foot tape measure)…but I had to hunt it down…GRRRR.

Rant over.  😉

Tolstoy

 

OK, you just got two pics from the site…here’s me rambling a bit.  🙂

Resident Evil 4 continues to be a distraction for me until my shooting season starts up for 2013 in about a week or two.  I’m currently playing it on my PC and my Game Cube to see the differences in the two versions, and there are a lot of them.  COOL differences too.  🙂  I’m currently thinking of getting some kind of device that records gameplay as I like watching this kind of stuff…they now make them to record in HD as well.  🙂  Cost of around $100…somewhat cheap, somewhat pricey…but aren’t ALL our hobbies???  😛

Ever hear of John Savage?  VERY cool guy; and one of the premiere rope guys in the business.  🙂  Not too long ago, he and I made contact thru Dave Annis (John is Dave’s inspiration…they met shortly after Dave got started…Dave introduced me to him via e-mail), and John asked me if he could use some of my covers for the “e-novels” he writes now.  I was flattered beyond belief and said, “Of Course!!!”…the result is here:

http://www.johnsavages.com/novels.html

You’ll have to scroll down a bit to find mine (look for Stacie Snow bound in a leather outfit and bound against a backdrop with rope pinned to the wall) as most of the pics are Dave’s…but I have a few in there.  🙂  Anyway…he told me about the publishing company he’s with…and it got me to thinking about writing my own novels.

I got about 5 chapters in…the story was about an heiress that got abducted…but as it turned out, she had a GREAT passion for bondage so she and her abductor got together as a couple and were going to bilk her father out of a good sum of money…and that’s as far as I got.  Writer’s block…and a pretty serious one.  Couldn’t figure where I wanted to go next with it.  :/  The story sat on my computer for a LONG time without a place to go and in the back of my mind as something I definitely want to finish.  Not too long ago, I thought of a direction I wanted to take it in…she gets rescued, but her captor shows up looking for a job as her bodyguard…and winds up REALLY guarding her body…lmao!  😛

Reason I mention this is, I was thinking of adding a page to the blog and publishing it here.  I don’t have the skill and stamina to publish stories on a regular basis, and it seems a shame to keep this to myself.  If I were to decide to finish this…anyone interested in seeing it?

Tolstoy

Standard Blog Warning: This is going to be a LONG one.  🙂  I have a LOT on my mind on this topic, so I’m gonna earn my “Tolstoy” moniker with this one.  Fair Warning.  🙂

After a year layoff, another Bondage Awards ceremony has come and gone…and I did fairly well this time, winning a prize or two. The Awards were nowhere near perfect, quality-wise, generally large mistakes were made in the process…but it seemed to be a fairly run competition, and for a 1st time administration behind it, they did a fairly good job.  Definitely room for improvement…but a fun contest.  BUT…to our Industry at large, I submit the following statement, to be read by my Blog viewers with a mega-fcukton of sarcasm attached:  I humbly apologize to any I may have offended by winning these prizes.  :/

FFS, man!  Where does this attitude of mine come from?  Twitter.  Ah, Twitter…fastly becoming mega-popular amongst the social media masses…and also fastly becoming popular for being the cesspool of the Internet.  On what do I base this?  Oh, come on…you’ve seen it yourself, you HAVE to…Twitter is a world-wide pissing ground for everybody with a cell phone or a computer to piss on everybody else.  You’ve seen it…Pop stars pissing on Pop stars, Sports stars pissing on Sports stars, Actors pissing on Actors, Politicians with ironic names passing their dicks around…you’ve seen it; Twitter is the ultimate piss parade these days, and the Bondage Industry hopped on board a few nights ago and the “pissed upon” was the Bondage Awards.

I was made privvy to a Twitter conversation between several Industry professionals mocking the Bondage Awards.  Why wasn’t this person nominated?  Why didn’t that person win?  These Awards are a joke because so and so didn’t win!  Nobody knew about these Awards…they don’t matter. And look at who DID win…who are these people? (To that, I say, I’m TolstoyTony; been working the career for 6 years now…lol.)  The one thing that I took away from their conversation was that they couldn’t be further away from the point and spirit of these Awards if they tried…it was truly sad to watch.  🙁

As one who won a few things, I don’t know if my voice on the subject bears any merit (it’s easy to talk from the top of the mountain, after all), but here’s my thoughts.  The conversation seemed to take the opinion that the Bondage Awards saw themselves as the be all-end all Awards of our field and who was nominated and who won didn’t live up to that; and that’s where, in my eyes, is the primary missing of the point. The Bondage Awards  are meant to be our field’s “People’s Choice Awards”…not the “Oscars”.

Where does the distinction lie?  The Oscars, as I understand them, are picked by a panel of Industry Professionals…the people who’re in the business choosing the elite of their own; The People’s Choice Awards are decided BY THE PEOPLE…and that’s my argument in a nutshell.  The Bondage Awards never passed itself off as anything more than an Internet voting situation for Fans to speak their minds and tell the Pros they thought we did a good job.  And to answer that line of, “Why wasn’t this person nominated?”…why didn’t YOU nominate them?  :/  I don’t know about my fellows, but I still have a GREAT degree of “Fan” in me…there’s MANY people who’s work I admire (and am even jealous of…I admit it), and these Awards were a chance for me to say that.  I voted for a lot of people…Lew Reubens got my constant vote for Best Suspension, Lew and Drea Morgan for Best Bondage Couple, the Yahoo Group “Rope_Dreams” for Best Free Website and Best Bondage Message Board…the list goes on.

My point is this: if you felt that this person or that person should have been nominated, then next year NOMINATE them!  Get them involved…motivate their fanbase to come out and vote…that’s what I did.  And as far as the Awards being so small…maybe if more of us took an interest in them, there’d be a bigger turnout.  If these people who were mocking were instead motivating their fans…meh, moot point.  These Awards held no credibility for them, after all.  From the Awards’ own site:

Contestant FAQ

How do I get people to vote for me, where do I start?

Since all votes come from the public, start with enticing the public to vote for you. Placing banner ads and mentioning the awards on your website or blog is a good start.

“ALL VOTES COME FROM THE PUBLIC.”  Honestly, I did that.  Posted here MULTIPLE times, didn’t I?  Told you all to come out and give me a nod…and vote for people you think deserve an Award, me or others, right?  These Awards are FAN DRIVEN…if so and such deserves it, motivate so and such’s fans!  Until the day we as an Industry get together and decide who should be on a Panel to decide who “deserves” to be awarded, fans are going to be the driving force behind any Awards given out…and because of that, there’s always going to be skeptics of the process…”so and so” may get missed because that person’s fans may not be involved.  Not doing so is almost like the person who bitches about our Country being in crap shape because of the President…yet when asked, that person says that he or she couldn’t be bothered to Vote in the Election.  :/  I look on this with that level of skepticism.

To that “Panel” of us Pros being picked for an Annual Award?  I’m for that.  I’d like to see it happen, honestly, and I support it.  I know I’d prolly never win one because I’m relatively new and there’s others who deserve the accolade of the upper echelon of the field more than I do (read that with sarcasm…), but I’d love to see that happen.  🙂  I even have a name for it…”The John Willie Awards”; because, really…didn’t he start us all?

Overall, the thing that depressed me the most and the most negative thing I took away from the conversation was the pros who said that the Awards didn’t matter because they were “fan driven”.  Pray thee tell…if that’s so, what does that say about your attitude towards your fans, then?

I’ll leave it on that…those’re my thoughts on the thing.  🙂

Tolstoy

WOW, what a way to start the day!  Flash Player and Advance System Care and Avast Virus Protection all picked this morning to have updated programs for my computer, so I had to update all…over three computers; got my check from the site (yay), so I have that to deposit, I need to get more content for UnlimitedBondage Tube…wow!  LOVE it when shit all piles up at once…lol.  On top of all that, Stacie Snow is patiently waiting for my plays on “Scramble With Friends” via our phones…cripes!  :/

Ah well…busy makes Tony happy in the long run.  🙂

Was perusing thru my older work lately, and came across my favorite shoot with Pantera Noelle…how about a pic or two to show you why it’s my fave?  🙂

Tolstoy

Those heels…YUM! I tied and gagged my private Secretary…think she’ll mind? Pantera Noelle

You think she might be enjoying this a bit? 😛 Pantera Noelle

One of my Favorite pairs of boobs to frame with rope…can you see why? Pantera Noelle

Alright…I’ll start with the usual “Have you voted yet?” link…

http://www.bondageawards.com/voting/

Rather than offend anyone, because, after all, even friends concede that the three things you don’t talk about are religion, money and politics, I won’t say who I voted for in the Presidential Election , but that I did.  🙂  Musing a bit about the political process…I’ve never been a “party” person (unless the “party” involves cake and ice cream…or strippers 😉 ); when I vote, I don’t vote a party, but the PERSON I believe can do the best job.  STAUNCH “Independent” and proud of it…because any party can turn out a stinker.  I’d hate to be pressed into voting for someone I didn’t believe in because a body of individuals expects me to…I’m my own person like that, thank you.  🙂

One thing I think we all can agree on is that we’re all thankful that it’s over, and we can return to our “semi-normal” way of life, television-wise…the political ads are OVER!!!  Jesus, Mary and Joseph; THANK YOU!!  😛  If there’s anything that makes a politician seem even shadier, it’s frigging election ads that paint the opponent to be the Devil incarnate, while the person placing the ad as wonderful as the lily white snow…

“My opponent wants to outlaw breathing…or charge you for the privilege of doing so.  And he kicks puppies.  I saw him make a 55 yd. field goal with a Cocker Spaniel pup…it was awful.  We don’t need a puppy-kicker in office; vote for me! (This message was paid for by the “I’m Better Than He Is” fund of the So-And-Such Party, who approved this message.)

I’m confused about one thing, politicians…since when did the Electoral Process become more about the awful things you say your opponent is versus what you yourselves ARE?  What about YOUR stand on the issues versus what you see your opponent’s stand to be?  It’s all about smoke screens and confusing the voters with misleading ads full of spin and hyperbola…when did it stop being about the PERSON?  I HATE politicians who feel they have to stoop to that shit to get elected…and I also hate that it seems to work.  🙁  As a people, we seem to be too lazy to do our own thinking anymore, and these ads, crooked as they can be, actually WORK…and that is completely sad.  Terrible, even.  🙁  “Spin” wins, it seems.

Well, I need to get cracking…Sasha Fae is stopping by in a few hours for a GREAT shoot…pic to come from it.  🙂  In the meantime, here’s a Gracie Ryder shot for being nice enough to read my drivel…lol.  😉

Tolstoy

Gracie Ryder…LOVE this shot!